Wasting Time (If You Ever Come Back): A Dystopian Love Poem

After Robert Hayden

Unable to sleep, or pray, I stand
By the window looking out
Stars excommunicated, the sky, faithless, black
Children in torn pants and shirts devouring
Air for oxygen, for food, and
A woman suckles a pup at her breast
Her newborn clawing at naked feet

Unable to pray, or pretend, I wish
That change comes with blinks
But, I am, I am a prisoner of logic
And reality is the way I left it
So I set the table, like you, for three
In case another joins me from the street
I won’t eat, though, I won’t eat
Until you come back

My Zero (Reprise)

i.

The one
You are not
I have found “the one” several times before
And no longer are they my ones
But the ones of another

The one
You are not
But my zero

ii.

I will bring the scent of many before youse
Women on my hips
In my beard
In my hair
In my mouth
Between my thighs and my fingers
Yes, an ocean of jealous females
Will come

But when I multiply them
By you
They will be nothing

*Originally published on thebreakdownoftaboo blog.